my parents are out. my brother has a bunch of friends over. im hiding in my parents room in the dark since my room is in the living room and theres a bunch of people over. I feel pathetic. I don't want to be around all these people. I can hear all of them laughing and enjoying themselves. i think I'm going to SI. im also in pain from my skin illness. why do i have the problems that I have? why can't I just enjoy myself like everyone else? I desparately need an escape. taking myself out of this world is all I can think of