I suffered from abuse from the time of my birth until I was 12 - I have very, very few memories of my childhood. That was many years ago. I am 57 now and just started getting flashbacks and memories of what happened to me and entered therapy. My T said the memories may or may not return and it is probably better if they don't - but with his help I am dealing with the issues. At least now I know why I have been depressed and anxious all my life and felt I did not deserve to live. Once you know the why of something you can start work to correct the damage and go on with your life a stronger and wiser person. Good luck in your journey - it is a hard road to travel but worth the trip to be healed of past traumas.

The vision of your goodness will sustain me through the cold
Take my hand now to remember when you find yourself alone
You are never alone… (John Denver)
Mars