You know... my perspective is that those of us who struggle with mental health issues will never know what's going on "upstairs", so to speak. Yes, people get diagnoses from pdoc's & T's. But then if you change providers, the chances are the new provider may slap a different label on you. None of it really tells you much about what's really going on with you. Every professional I've seen has had a little different take on what's going on with me. But in the end, none of it really makes any difference.

Given what you wrote above, my thought would be that, until you can arrange for some professional help, continue to get together with this family member. It sounds as though it is helpful. Tell her you'd really like to talk more about your depression but it's difficult. Tell her you're going to try to do so a little bit at a time. Ask her to encourage you. It sounds as though she has been where you are & she'll understand. And it sounds like she wants to help. However, I'm sure she doesn't want to butt in where she's not wanted either, nor does she want to push you toward something you're not prepared for. So just let her know you want to talk & you're going to try to do so a bit at a time. There again, you don't need to spill the beans all at once... easy does it...