i had this happen to me 2 times

something inside just snaps and u have deadly rage going with no control

you only have one option .........u need to get a good amount of money together 300 600 bucks
from there u call up all the ppl and invite them out to some place in public to eat and talk .....it is on u..... u want a chance to explain ........it is in a public place so they have no reason to worry ........if they are still worried tell them u will put a tazer on the table they can zap u

once they get there the ones that are willing to show up explain it to them the best u .....from there they will forgive yah and be buddies or it will end and u tried everything u could

all my ppl know i am bat **** crazy ......it is part of the reason they like me i make them laugh .....if i flip out every 10/15 years they are ok with it they know can take a hit so if need be knock me out tie me up