Hi guys. I am sad today. It's been almost a month since I first posted my "problem" and just want to vent...I let you guys know that I am seeing a therapist by myself...and that's going well. But hubby and I are also seeing a couples therapist every 2 weeks...(which I think is a cover for him to say, "Hey, I tried this thing and it still didn't work" so that HE doesn't look bad to friends and family. Anyway, our "communication" was good for the two weeks, but I brought up my complete anxiety and insecurities with other women. I told myself I wasn't going to, because that's when he gets mad and defensive....well, once I said, "I never got over those phone messages and it haunts me every day....." he immediately said, "Well, then it's over." Am I wrong in thinking that if he wanted to truly save this marriage he would talk with me about it and make me feel secure about it? He LIED and said he NEVER heard the messages. He also told the therapist I have free reign over his voicemail and email (which I don't...remember, he changed password and doesn't know I do know it)...He didn't look good in front of her and it blew him away and he shut down.......but, I'm the one feeling bad...

Shouldn't he be the one feeling bad? I told myself not to bring it up because but those calls are really hurting me and keeping me from moving on. He insisted he doesn't know what I am talking about...blah, blah, blah.

Support and advice please. I think he thought he was winning because we were working on positive talking and him needing love from me and then tables turned to me not trusting him....He said, "You don't love me if you don't trust me." Therapist said....she can still love you...but trust would have to be built up....he said that's not true....on and on....really, I feel he was trying to make himself look good in front of her.....

Now, she laughs at things he says and such...but is she DUMB enough to believe all he is saying or does she just maybe belive me...........

Sadness is among me again! (((