I feel like the therapy is working....but the trauma therapy is harder for me to deal with....and its going slower then other things I have done before.

I do want to look at getting married but yes I do agree there is a lot that need to happen and change before we do do this...and I think this is partly why things are escilting to the point we are its bring up topics that are not easy to discuss for either one of us...but it does need to be brought up.... its hard to deal with cause these kind of talks have come up before and we are actually a lot better about disscussing this.... then how we have before.

I feel like the holidays are playing a part.... I am on meds...but I am going through some changes in them also just cause since I have less money right now I am thinking of changing some things...since the last time I picked up meds it was nearly $200

I really have no idea ...as to why some of these things are making my life so hard...I just know that...I feel really stressed out and depressed and I don't wanna be like this..

I am struggling with a lot of things and I just am getting upset by all this stuff in my life.