I don't want to take away from OP's post, but yes, about 2 years later...he finally reached out to me . And we wound up having a great realtionship for about 3 years. But things happened and I haven't seen or spoken to him in 8 years. This last time was his fault (told me I was a disappointment to him, wished I wasn't in his life so he could be free, and on his birthday he just wanted to see me for 5mins to get his gift). I kicked him out of my life. He knows where I am. I have written him explaining why I did it. I love my dad still and I want him back in my life. But I want him to want me in his life. And if/when he reaches out, I will know that he does want me.