I am sexually attracted to intelligence, I like class and self respect, but at the same time. I go crazy if I date anyone who isn't that sexually compatible. I'm not going to force it on them ever, I'm just not going to bother with them. Like I was always right as a kid, on one thing, but didn't understand what I like and put it into a category.

I used to say, "I want to marry a pornstar." When I was a child, and believed it. It sounds messed up, but after being sexually abused all the time from different people. I really had my libido very high and I want someone who can help me on that. At the same time someone who cares about what I do and who I am. Putting value behind it of who I am. I don't have a problem giving the same respect. Someone I can trust emotionally on her actions, because I expect it not demand it and she knows better that if she tried to do something stupid. I'm cutting her off completely. She can take her stuff and life and go far away whatever she wants to do. I'm not stopping her. Also I'm not going to shame her sexual identity/orientation if she is bi/ or how she likes it, but as a preference I'd rather not date someone seriously who isn't compatible on certain things with my kinks.

I know it sounds silly, but I won't like it. I know later down the road. I'm just going to start hating myself and self destruct the relationship without cheating. I never cheated. I'll just make them leave, because I don't like being told what I like, "is not what everyone does. I'm not going to be called a ***** or be with a *****." That type of talk is so ignorant and stupid from anyone. I find it infuriating, I dated people who did this to me every time, and they go out have sex with whoever and say like "Oh it's an accident I hope you aren't mad? "

That what makes me mad, because I shouldn't have the respect I give you to go out with your sexual needs and be who you are in that way, because you are afraid of losing me. When I didn't have that with you, I'm just afraid you are trying to pressure and hurt me and put me in a box that I don't belong in.

I've been constantly disrespected it felt at some point if someone was dating me, it was an insult to them in my mind when I was a teenager. Now I'm not dating anyone. They won't get me to say first date or I love you ever and actually mean it from a deeper level other than casual stuff.

I don't trust anyone, it will take many many many years, I got ****ed over too many times. I'm not adding more to that list.

Some girls are just girls, at 20 years old even to 29. Many of the act like girls not women. Most boys will be boys in my area. I hate it, immaturity and ignorance and stupidity and shaming others for whatever reason. Won't get you to win my heart. I'll tear your *** up, because people like that are bullies and are ****. They don't deserve any respect from me. I don't care man or woman.

I just find this society beyond stupid. It's supposed to implement to a demographic that's not here today much anymore. People hold on to these stupid irrational moral code of conduct and force it on others if they are different, like in my area,

"homosexuality is bothed shamed and praised depending where you go... being a transgender or even admitting you are will get you shot beaten and raped here... It's why I'm not coming out to many people here... Or if you have sexual kinks people will condemn you like you are satan in their minds... Like not just older people like everyone... is indoctrinated in this BS"

It's complete crap, because many of the people I'm around don't practice what they preach they do all the stuff they are against not just sexual stuff, but stuff like being nice and respectful to others when others do need it they are close with, or even using communication properly and knowing how to act maturely...

I don't believe anyone, no one has convinced me they deserve to be anywhere near my life because they are selfish like me, but how they go about it is what gets me frustrated when people that want me to be their friend aren't really good people.

It's so frustrating everyone here is stupid and they choose to stay stupid and act like they are smart.

Especially the girls I don't respect. I don't talk to them, or associate anything with them because they act like they don't care about anyone.

Same with guys.

The only people I like are respectful sorta, but they end up being really mean and leading me on a goose chase for them. When I just want a straight answer, and then I get it. I'm disappointed and relieved. This has been going on since I don't know. This why no one as of now deserves to anything called a girlfriend by me, or even me thinking ever about kids, I'm to the point I don't want kids ever, because of my ex killing my child and blaming it on me and people doing dishonest ****, because I don't want my child to go through any of that. Also I'm tired, I don't want to work hard on someone else to maintain a relationship.

Like seriously the people I like don't exist. And if the emotional part and they may not have the sexual compatibility at all. I've made a decision it's either going to be what I'd like in the individual not all of it, but at least most of it, because I appreciate flaws pretty easy with girls, I'm bi, but with guys they have to have looks. I'm very much never going to date a guy, because I'm not attracted to many guys. What usually attracts me is the gratitude of emotional good things I feel about this person, or how smart they are and looks sorta not really too keen on that with girls.

It just bugs the **** out of me, when I like someone and they turn out all the time to be a person I don't want to be around and they end up as an acquaintance after like day one. In my mind they might think I'm in love with them, because they expect people to. It bugs me so much that people discriminate me, because I'm going to jump in and bang this girl and I don't know her or if she has stds at some party or some public place and let some other guy take her. Like I don't even care that's what throws everyone off, I miss potential people because they see I don't care in a wrong perspective, but really I don't care about the superficial crap. It's beyond boring bland and lacks any sort of character interest. The classic dating model is stupid, because it's beyond boring. If I was ever going to do that to the key, maybe the person shouldn't be any of the things that piss me off about any person.

I'm not sorry about, I hate ignorance and people choosing to be stupid. I hate it above everything else, I hate poor communicators , and I hate people who don't care, I hate people who try put on a front when I didn't ask them too.

It's disappointing and I don't go searching for people. I'm surrounded by these kinds of people. I'm about to leave the country and date a foreign girl, I hate the american girls I live by. The only ones I like are my close friends and my family and people I let in. Everyone else I don't care, and the ones who piss me off can go do their own thing. I don't care about them.