But if you don't deal with it, it just follows right along with you as you run away. How do you separate yourself from your shadow? I told my T once the worst part is I can never get away from me....he looked at me so compassionately it blew me away.

I'm learning how to like myself....love myself sounds too much. But I'm learning how to be ok with me. The pain I've been going through in therapy has been very much worth it. I don't even know my real diagnosis as my T is one of those diagnosis-isn't-important-kumbaya Ts But it doesn't matter. It's not about diagnosis - it's about getting better.