When you say ..
it got to the point where it did not matter what kind of attention it was, it was still attention.
Your opening the doors to abuse because your not watching out for yourself .
That is very dangerous thinking and it could one day cost you your life .

That's like saying if someone knock on my door and says I have a nice place and because that was nice of them to say that , I will give them my house key .

You need to find a way to love yourself and protect yourself and not just take anyone who is going to
say sweet nothings to your ear . ..

Are you seeing a Therapist ? Maybe they can help you threw this , so you don't feel so alone ?