I am very glad.

Went to the one hour session yesterday, and my T explained she had meant that I could come anyway and we'd figure something re the money. And we did, she can offer an hour a week for the cost of the room rental, which is £20 so I can manage that. We did an extra session today as things have been all crazy this week, and it was really hard to bring up but I told her I didn't agree that I had been abusive, that it's a word that packs a punch, and we straightened that out. She said she was using the word in a very different way to me being a monster, she didn't mean that, just that what I had said had been hurtful as if I was doubting her care, and was not representative of our relationship.

I think I asked all the questions I needed to around the issue, which I suppose is to do with resolving conflict really.

Yesterday, she sent an email liaising with the crisis team I have been in contact with recently, and with my pdoc. And got some information for me of some niche hotlines that I hadn't heard of. I felt very taken care of, like finally the support that I need might be there.

Tomorrow I am going to a holistic health place who give people with chronic illness different complimentary therapies such as acupuncture. So between it all, and with finally starting to turn to friends more - I feel the support net is growing. It seemed to take getting extremely distressed to finally be able to accept support from people other than my therapist.

I luffs my T