Everything is just really hard right now and the people who I thought would give me support are not giving me much. this is something I can't do on my own and I don't think that some people understand that. I am not strong enought to deal with this on my own. I really am having a hard time and really I should be getting some support here where I live, but they are just putting me off, but I am hoping to solve that some tonight. I will update you all as much as I can. All I ask is please don't push me away.