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Originally Posted by Fruitytooty
My t told me that I dissociate during sex with DH and I agree. I was date raped in college, which was my first time having sex, so we figure that is the cause of the dissociation. Basically I remember everything about the sex except what it physically feels like for me. I also space out a lot and have a difficult time maintaining my attention on sex. I'm pretty much always fantasizing about strangers having sex when we're doing it- I read a couple other sex/dissociation threads that mentioned doing that too. As a teenager when I masturbated I always read erotica while I was doing it. Looking back I remember different locations and different erotic stories but I don't remember the physical feelings. Is it possible to dissociate during masturbation? I don't have a sexual trauma history besides the date rape. What would be the function of the dissociation?
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It seems obvious that the date rape is not the reason, so I am surprised why your T settled for that hypothesis. You were date raped in college. You don't remember the physical sensations you experienced while masturbating and reading erotic stories in adolescence. So you started dissociating long before the date rape.
How could have the date rape retroactively caused dissociation in adolescence? So the T does not seem to be especially shrewd when it comes to explanations, but that the T noticed that you dissociate is great and for that the T is worth the wages you pay him or her.
There is a forum on dissociation on this site. Fascinating reading. I hope you can find lots and lots of support and interesting threads to chew on there.