I yo used to SI when I was in high school, and afterwards I like to think I got better... but now that I'm older and have even more stressful situations in my life I'm realizing that I haven't, and that I'm really bad at coping with anything.

I've also had crazy anxiety lately also... that's not something I've experienced before and I don't like it.

I know I really don't want to cut again because it would be embarrassing and Id be ashamed if anyone saw them, but it's literally always in the back of my mind. But I really don't want therapy, I don't.