Thanks for all the responses and encouragement! I'm still a little upset about it. I'm questioning everything that happened to me, wondering if maybe I was misdiagnosed. Like being sent home from Italy...I was delusional (and part of my delusion was thinking that I was talking to dead people who wanted me to kill myself), but I didn't get really suicidal until I felt like several people mistreated/abandoned me. So that makes me seem borderline. :/

Your posts were the only thing keeping me sane today when I got really upset about this, so thanks!