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Originally Posted by brokenwarrior
I often spend a lot of time reading articles/blogs online. While I am reading my brain is finally quiet and reading things related to psychology calms me down and makes me feel less crazy. I was reading this one blog that talked about people with BPD in therapy. I felt think this therapist was talking about me. I was like "S***, this is exactly what I have been experiencing."
While it did provide a sense of understanding, I'm also so scared that this could possibly be true. I feel like I now have another reason to stop therapy.
Anyone had a similar experience to this? What did you do?
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I don't know why you're reading these things, because when I was real anxious I would read stuff like that and it would calm me but then I would read something that would freak me out. In the early phases of my trauma, I had become so...I forget the word for it, like thinking I have whatever illnesses that they were describing. So just be careful cause it can just add to your anxiety.
Just deal with what you have in front of you, if it's BPD traits or if it's whatever, and go from there. Having traits doesn't mean you have BPD. My mom has traits, not the whole illness. Many people have traits of a mental illness and it doesn't mean they have the full one.
And also, what if you did have BPD? BPD comes in so many varieties. I was reading a
post earlier by a member wanting to write a book on a different variety of BPD that doesn't necessarily involve self injury and rage and so on.
Don't let the name freak you out or expect terrible things to happen or think it's hopeless. I's just a label. And recovery from BPD is the norm not exception. This is from wiki article on BPD so check the references to make sure accurate, but it paints a hopeful picture:
Borderline personality disorder - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
"A longitudinal study tracking the symptoms of people with BPD found that 34.5% achieved remission within two years from the beginning of the study. Within four years, 49.4% had achieved remission, and within six years, 68.6% had achieved remission. By the end of the study, 73.5% of participants were found to be in remission.Moreover, of those who achieved recovery from symptoms, only 5.9% experienced recurrences. A later study found that ten years from baseline (during a hospitalization), 86% of patients had sustained and stable recovery from symptoms.Thus contrary to popular belief, recovery from BPD is not only possible but common, even for those with the most severe symptoms. However, it is important to note that these high rates of relief from distressing symptoms have only been observed among those who receive treatment of some kind"
Of course, all that IF you have the full disorder, which is already jumping to conclusions. So don't.
