Hey..

So, I've finally found my path in the education system, and I've been doing really well over the past year. Yesterday was my first real exam, and I got the next-highest grade. I never really got any high grades, so this is a really special thing for me - if I can get high grades, I must be good at this stuff. I was also told that I was extremely close to the highest grade, which makes it an even bigger deal to me.

Today however, one of my classmates got the highest grade. I'm just so pissed off. I don't feel like he deserves it. One of my other classmates got a grade lower than me, because he was too broad in his topic.

I've read the first guy's paper, and it's stuffed with topics, making it extremely broad and without academic depth. He also likes to brag and use big words he has no clue what means (I correct him sometimes, to get him to shut up), and I'm almost positive that the examiner was impressed with his "ability" to use big words.

I know I shouldn't let it get to me, and I should be happy for him. To some extend I am - as he's a good friend of mine as well, which might make this confusing. But over the past month or two I'm just becoming annoyed with his constant showing off, and even showing me off (as in pointing out what I do and how good I am). I'm usually humble and quiet about these things, so that doesn't work with me.

Ugggghhh... It' just the thought that I always imagined myself being better than him (terrible I know), and the rest of the class thinking of me as the most clever. But that's most likely gone now. I liked having that status.. I've always been the funny or quiet kid - never the smart one