HI. I'm a single mom on an autistic little girl. She's mild to moderate. I'm about to start psych school and I still live with my parents....with that being said. No matter HOW hard I try....it feels like it's never good enough. With the constant nagging and critizing by my mother, I feel like I'm breaking into a million pieces and no one knows how to help me. My mom and I fight a lot and sometimes in front of my daughter who sees everything. When I mean fight....it's not fists or anything violent but yelling and al that junk. I tend to hold a lot in. There's experiences from my past that I haven't been able to overcome. Therefore I just store them away but it seems to leak through and it angers me which causes me to be engulfed with rage and I always snap at my mother. Not only myself, but I blame her for many things. The one person that keeps me going and I will protect to the very end with all my heart and soul is my precious daughter. I want to get better for her and be the best for her. But I'm coming to realize that I NEED HELP. I won't be able to give her what she needs if mommy isn't well. When I was a teen, I was diagnosed as being Manic Depressive/Borderline Bipolar. My mother laughed and said that I was a joke and just trying to get attention. So I never told her my feelings Learned to bottle it up.....and now from age 15 to age 33.......it's spewing out. I would like to get a Professional Psychological Test. I do not have health insurance. I'm in the Miami area. Please help me.