Hi Kaboodle/jelly-bean,

Thank you for your responses. They were great. And I appreciate you reading my novel... or maybe you stopped at the second paragraph... but either way your responses, and especially your positivity, is much appreciated. You both nailed it: I'm a perfectionist. But there are much bigger issues in the world, but I totally feel ya, I run into those same types of issues that you listed below in my life.

My therapist also likes to say I live in my head. Literally said the same thing. And I do, it's very comfy up there because there's no one judging me except myself. I think sometimes I try to lead with my heart, or I guess I call it trying to be more vulnerable (same concept, right?), but I do have a lot of difficulty doing that. Everyone does, but for whatever reason I have this great fear of failing and being judged for it. It's something I'm going to continue working on in therapy, hopefully break some old habits, and I"ll bring up that rum psych with my therapist and see what she says.

Thank ya'll so much. And yeah kaboodle, I read it over 3000 times, and I also tend to overwrite and over explain things to make sure they're just perfect, if you couldn't tell...