I was in therapy for some months and now I really suffer from an unwanted termination, my T choosed to terminate me from different reasons. I´m now looking for a new T.

This is quite painful but I also realise, and that´s why I´m now writing, that I really feel lost and unsure about what to do in life. I´m now not talking about destructive behaviour but what career to choose and how to go on with my life.

I was unsure and lost before I started therapy as well but after therapy I now feel even more unsure. I have a university degree, I´ve studied for many years and to study even more is not an option much because of finances. I have to in some way figure out how to use my university degree in something I would like to work with but I don´t now how.

I´ve also been unemployed for several years after I graduated, (I´m some years above 30) and the unemployment has to do with my other problems, that is feeling lonely, I´ve never had a relationship, I live in a town where I have no relatives. I have a somewhat distant relationship to both my mother and my father.

I really feel empty and I´m also very scared that I won´t be able to find my way in life, just floating around in some kind of "half child, half adult" state where I don´t know what to do.

I´m in a way grateful for realising this and I don´t regret I went to see a T but I now realise more than before that I have problems and issues that hinders me in life and that scares me.

Anyone who perhaps feels the same or felt the same? What to do and how to think? (Talking about it in therapy is obvious but I didn´t find a new T yet)