Yeah, life can be a ***** sometimes. You keep putting yourself out there for people, and they keep letting you down. When you finally make a connection with someone, life gets in the way and something always seems to make it go away.

It sucks when you feel worthless. It sucks when you want to give up on life. It sucks when you search inside yourself for some modicum of self-esteem (or self- acceptance) only to turn away in disgust or resignation. I hear ya on all counts there.

It seems to me like, based on your post, these feelings are centered around the relationships you have with other people. You talk about liking guys, but I'd wager you probably have the same sort of issues with people of all types, right? Do you have any idea why that might be?