Why is it that I can see the pain, struggles and situations of others, especially on PC, and feel such deep empathy and sorrow for them? And, wish so much that the person gets help, and know that they deserve help. Why is it that I can see the person is a deserving person and needs love and attention, why all of this, and then I can't, for the life of me, see that I need these things too to make me healthy again? When it comes to me, every chance or suggestion of help I turn down and I just say I'll think about it. I never do, I just forget about it.

I can identify so much with what others are saying who have depression and I can immediately see how much they are hurting. Then, when I try to have compassion for myself, it all just fades and I think I deserve everything that is happening to me. I don't seek help and I don't allow anyone to help me. Why have I turned on myself, the one person who needs me the most?

Does anyone else ever feel this way?