ok besides going into religion cuz im just going to debate - i still think im being watched regardless. if not always by god then i fear my passed relatives and especially some sort of angels or demons because ive heard them before and i dont think that what i hear is always hallucinations. i couldnt pee yesterday because i felt like SOMEONE or SOMETHING was watching me. idk what or who but i felt a presence and i just lol i couldnt use the bathroom. plus masturbating. i should test that again.

thing is im also having like religious ocd or something. idk this is hard. its tough.