I think I'm in some weird neutral zone.

I care about my T. I've seen him for six years and I genuinely have some level of affection and attachment to him. That being said, I don't have a romantic love towards him. He's attractive so sometimes I have a few fantasies, but they never leak into some desire to have a relationship with him (haha).

I kinda like what I have. I feel like it's intimate and deep and I can leave him in his office when I go home