touchingthestars, you're doing great! keep up the good work! I loved the post by waggiedog. I also struggle a lot with structured eating plan drafted by my dietitian and in fact I'm trying to skip meals or to reduce portion size.. so hard. I've been having B for 20 years or even more and now at the age of 33 I'm here in the bottom, I don't want to live and I don't want my children to live either cause all the three of us are a burden to everyone around us, I know it's not true but it's just my mind which talks this non-stop. And I have that absolutely awful body image, I don't even want to brush my teeth or to comb cause it's not going to improve the way I look in any way.
I am now taking sertraline, hope this helps a bit. And I'm also trying to stick to the meal plan so I'm with you touching the stars!