So i haven't cut for a while, i was doing really good for like a year and then it all started again and it wasn't so bad, but i was disappointed with myself. Then i went on holiday so i made a very good effort not to SH in the lead up. Once i got on holiday i had really bad urges to cut but i couldnt, i had a few panic attacks whilst trying to get to sleep (and felt really bad for keeping my bf awake.although i didn't tell him about my urges to cut)

So i got through my holiday without cutting and i thought the first thing i'd do when i got home was relieve my urges but i managed to not SH and i've been back for about 2 weeks and i slipped up on friday and gave in. I don't know what to do...this week i've just been so down and i can't tell ANYONE..my bf is so great with me but i just physically can't speak about my problems, it's probably one of the reasons i get so down...plus even if i do manage to speak...i can't put my thoughts into words. If i write stuff down i just end up binning it because it's crap. So i'm stuck now.