I've been thinking about this, is there a better reason for me not to si? Is there more to life than feeling hopeless, anxious, and stressed from trauma? I accept that I have been traumatized, and there's a big stigma around it for me, but is there a better reason??

My program is almost up, financially I'm having problems, and there's lots of stress towards life. But is there a better reason to not si?? I'm sitting here thinking of all the stress, and physical pain due to the past week, and feeling triggered, and all I want is to si. But, is there a better reason? In a group this week, a member mentioned a reason to not si, a long term reason, but I don't know what I want from life. I'm frustrated, and hurt, and just want someone to say, it's going to be okay. I have one class that I'm more worried about, then the rest. I need to get things done but right now I'm in that area of thinking that for me has been dangerous. I need a creative break... but what.....

For those that have had a better reason to not, what is it??