There is this guy I work with, he happens to be a cook there and of course I happen to be a baker there.

He is rather quiet there and so I had been approaching him and starting conversations so that he feels more welcome in my company. He had started a couple months ago and I realized that I seemed to start staring at him everyday to see if he is there. I don't know if I truly would of been looking at him that much if he had never said anything during his interview. He had asked me "if he had seen me before". We happen to have went to the same college and I didn't even know it until I asked him if he went to college. That's when I started staring at him to see maybe I had seen something there. Then I noticed I was attracted to certain features on him and he seemed kind. It's one of those situations where I wouldn't ever had thought I would be attracted to a guy like him, you just never know...

So then forward to a few days ago...

During dinner time at work I had seen that he ended up taking his dinner around the same time as me but he didn't sit down where I was sitting because it was a little crowded. (Plus I believe he feels uncomfortable in crowds and doesn't want to say it.) I ended up eating my dinner quickly so I could go sit with him for a bit. So I asked how he was doing and he told me good. Then immediately had asked me if I would like to go for a drink after work so I said sure.

He ended up picking me up and took me to Buffalo Wild Wings. I ended up having a little too much beer. I wasn't drunk though but I know I had felt buzzed.

The day after I had realized how terrible of a date/hangout it was because I felt like I was being overly pessimistic because I complained more than I should of and feel I had said other things that I shouldn't of said. Come on it's a first hangout and I do that, "what a great impression and great friend." I would of thought there would been some red flags shown to him but he wants to hangout again. I felt it was an off the wall date.

It felt like we were a bunch of chatter boxes with no flowing conversations. I do understand we both were nervous which explains this and I can not say there wasn't any fun involved at all either. We most certainly had laughed a lot.

He seems like a rather good guy and I can tell he really likes me due to many comments he had said and the fact he wants to hangout again. Plus for some reason he kept touching my hair. Though... I do feel I need to say something to him about that because I'm cautious of being physically touched when getting to know a guy, I can feel uncomfortable. I do like hugs good bye though.

But I feel I need to apologize to him about the complaining too much when I hangout with him again. Which I explained before I don't feel it's good at all to complain when getting to know someone or anytime truthfully. I didn't feel like myself. Which after this I feel confused on how I feel about him which I think this apology can help, plus our next hangout.

I would like to hear some opinions on this situation. Thank you!