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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
So maybe set a goal to either be on the meds consistently or try the depot after that.....I think it might really help with going back to school...however you may have to do it sooner if you get too unstable.....just the luck of the draw....
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i start school in less than 10 days. idk if i can even do it not just cuz of my illness but because its school. i like school but never been good at it. i dont see my pdoc til jan 7 anyway. im afraid i wouldnt be able to think critically enough for school. i have never been able to do school on meds in the past ever. i just lay around and sleep all day dumbed down on meds.
ugh i think im just going to be like this for the rest of my life hearing voices and having paranoia. also i still cant converse very well off meds - like keeping on a conversation. im very confused all the time. but then on meds its just not better either.
idk what to with myself. either way its bad. really bad.
no matter what i accomplish - no matter what i do or where i go - i will always have this illness and it will always be holding me back and i will always be in the cycling mental health system.