I hate to say this and reaffirm the notion but after all this time I finally fell back down into depression...I'm so tired of feeling this way these past few days have been steadily testing my limits on what I can take and hold in but I'm starting to crack. I'll give myself some credit for being more resilient but as of right now I'm just done fighting it's OVERWHELMING right now I'm sure by the time I wake up I'll be fine and I'll gather the strength to move on from these emotions but dammit man I gotta get it out...The whole triad of anger..sadness..depression has struck me down once again but I'm a try to not let it keep me here I really am but as of right now this very moment I could just explode I'm so filled with anger rage and just overall depression I wish I had something to physically let this out with because it affects my physical well being and behavior my uncanny ability to mask any and every emotion is again starting to shed joining this site was a step for me but maybe there's more I need...idk