Oh by the way I have a Assertive Community Team of professionals I work with on a daily basis ,I'm addicted to the false sense of calming it gives me the meds when I od as well as the numbness I get as well as the high sometimes .

I feel I deserve what I get as a result of the od and have the attitude of what happens will happen although I know that is not an excuse nor does it justify what I am doing , my team is concerned and is aware of what I am doing an has taken steps to take some of the meds away from me and I suppose they are trying to give me the be benefit of the doubt as well as take a chance that I would value the trusting relationship versus the od on meds.

I certainly am sorry to hear about the person who posted about their bad experience I truly appreciate hearing it though it did kinda put me off of od urges.

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