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Originally Posted by newtus
i start school in less than 10 days. idk if i can even do it not just cuz of my illness but because its school. i like school but never been good at it. i dont see my pdoc til jan 7 anyway. im afraid i wouldnt be able to think critically enough for school. i have never been able to do school on meds in the past ever. i just lay around and sleep all day dumbed down on meds.
ugh i think im just going to be like this for the rest of my life hearing voices and having paranoia. also i still cant converse very well off meds - like keeping on a conversation. im very confused all the time. but then on meds its just not better either.
idk what to with myself. either way its bad. really bad.
no matter what i accomplish - no matter what i do or where i go - i will always have this illness and it will always be holding me back and i will always be in the cycling mental health system.
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Going to school may help you, it never hurts to try. You have a chance to improve yourself and your future. I know it may be difficult for you, but you need to start planning a life for yourself.
Your parents aren't going to be around forever and you need to stand on your own two feet. You can't keep using your MI as an excuse to curl up into a ball and do nothing.