I've been trying to figure out what words go with them. Anger and shame are the only two I'm able to verbalize at the moment. Most times those have been my go-to's but surely I've felt something other than that in my life. It sounds weak and cry-babyish to me to say scared, lonely, etc.

Why I have to be John Wayne is a thing I'm exploring with T right now. I'm as human as everyone else and deserve a full range of feelings but my little voice in my head won't let me!