Hello & Welcome, PeterPan2003. You have an interesting set of observations of yourself. Getting screened for depression, etc. would be a natural next step.
PsychCentral Depression Quiz
Sanity Score Quiz
- These are simply screening tests; they are not diagnostic.
Does your college offer counselling of any type?
Please make yourself at home here.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.