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i actually havent been doing "nothing". i volunteered at a Petsmart (an pet shop) from august til early november of this year. and before that I had been visiting family i hadnt seen in 7 or so years in two different states. i also have been working on losing weight (which can be a full time thing) and have been kinda successful losing close to 20 pounds so far. and some other things.

my schizophrenia personally doesnt make me want to curl into a ball or sit around. as long as im off meds i have a huge drive to do things. i may not be successful at them but i do things. my paranoia and voices are always in the way bbut as long as im off meds i still have a drive. thats why i dont want meds. meds make me sit around and do nothing. theres something about psychosis that makes me hypervigilant and keeps me moving.