I can relate, I can go weeks without leaving the house unless its to a coffee shop in my car or to the grocery store. I work from home right now and I feel like such a loser sometimes, that feeling of being pathetic or not having a life is something I was literally up all night thinking about last night. To make matters worse I know I should be in college right now but my anxiety keeps me from signing up to take classes and sitting with a whole classroom full of people. I don't know what I'm doing and its stressing me out.
I went out a lot more when I had a boyfriend a couple of months ago but since we broke up I literally have not gone out for "fun" in a long time.
I was diagnosed with PTSD but I realize I need to change if I really want to have a life worth living but right now I don't know how I'm going to do that.
I use the computer as a crutch. Sometimes I wonder if I just never touched the computer again maybe I would get so bored that it would force me out of the house everyday, but since my job right now is literally on the computer, that's not going to happen unless I'm really strict about it.
Just know that you aren't alone. It sucks. I know eventually I'll have to change, but right now not moving feels a lot better than changing.
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