Thanks, sister.

I think I understand what you are saying. But I am "asking" her to answer some questions so that I can get a sense of things. I have at least a low grade level of Borderline Personality Disorder and I'm always in need of assurance.
And there are other reasons. If you knew all the questions...it might be easier to understand what I'm seeking.

It is a personal thing I guess. Plus, for me, I cannot personally justify returning just on the basis of "missing her". Though my therapist said just prior to the break that there may be several reasons I might want to come back and she literally mentioned "missing her" as one of the reasons. But I miss everyone and if that is the basis for returning to people, I'd always be returning to people...and most of them probably don't want me to return.

(probably a bit strong to say i am "making" her answer a survey though. i'm pretty sure i get you meant it as a playful push. it is sort of funny that you would use the word "making"...because I always blame myself for "making" people uncomforable by my very presence and "making" them hurt and all. it is a very deep issue in my therapy. but my therapist says "I can't make people react in certain ways. they react because of something in them." this was especially referred to people who are older than me. (And in one of the questions I gave her, I mentioned something specifically about that very notion of "making" people.)

i guess I shall see if how things go.