Thanks a lot. I really appreciate you reading my post and responding. I just wish that I felt I deserve any of the kind words you provided me with. But those are all good ideas to take into account. After I'm done with my training I'll reach out to my co-facilitator and we'll work something out. He's been doing this group for over a year now, so I'll have to just put faith in him and he'll help me out as much as he can. I really need to work on not giving my thoughts so much power over me, that's how they win and make me feel terrible.I just don't want him to think I'm still so f**ked up that I shouldn't lead the group or something like that. I just worry and become so anxious about everything I do and everything that I type and how I type it and how it will be perceived by others and what they will think of me and that no one likes me or anything, ok, I'm done here. Anyway thanks again. I'm going to go an do some self-care. Something positive, that's what I need. TV here I come, distress tolerance here I come !