I have seen my T for about eight months. I had therapy yesterday. I had a dissociative episode- first time that's happened in a long time..first time T has ever seen that happen to me.

I hated it. I had no control. It was hard to talk. It was hard to think. I felt like I didn't want to come back. I feel embarrassed.

Looking back, it feels like someone snatched my clothes off in public.

I feel vulnerable...I didn't even know I should have had my guard up. I hate feeling vulnerable.

I hate that it could happen again. I don't even want to talk in therapy anymore.

If this happens to you...does your T help bring you back? How?

I didn't even realize I was gone until T said, "How are you feeling right now?"

Maybe I should ask her to touch my knee or something to signal me...maybe that would help bring me back?