I went through an entire year of a schizophrenic break from reality and it resulted in me calling the cops and affirmative action on my professors. Honestly, they were picking on me. But I took it to an extreme because of my illness that I had no control over and they were questioned by the university. Then I was thrown into a psychward for a week only to realize what I have done. I sent an apology letter to them and no response. Can you imagine, nothing. They glare at me. They are short with me. They go out of their way to avoid me. I'm a social Pariah. One of them told my peer that I didn't even apologize which is weird because I even had my psychologist sit down with me and help me write it. So I wrote another one asking him if I could see him so I could tell how truly sorry I am. Still, nothing. No response. They want nothing to do with me. I wanted to go into acadamia and to do so I need letters of recommendation and now what do i do?

I had NO control over my mental illness. This wasn't my fault yet I still apologized twice and nothing. I don't think I can get into grad school without a letter of recoemmendation now.

Im baffled. What do I do?