I am a 21 yr old gay male. I'm 130lbs and I'm losing weight quickly. I weighed 140 just over a month ago. I have an appetite to eat but eating just feels disgusting. I literally think it's gross, Today I've eaten a plum and a few rice crackers this morning. I am bipolar and I am going through a depressive phase. I keep looking at my stomach constantly and it makes me want to cry. I smoke a pack of cigarettes a day to make myself skinnier and I avoid driving anywhere where there's restaurants. I was doing fine, but now I'm so low on energy and I keep sleeping all the time. It's harder to walk and I just started a job at Macy's and it's interfering with my job. I want to eat but I can't push myself to start eating. It's like a chore, even when I'm hungry. I feel like crying constantly and I haven't told anyone close to me, not my family or friends, One of my friends keeps questioning me about my eating and keeps bringing over eggs and cheese and other foods and tells me to eat them. I really need help but I can't make myself eat. Help me.