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Originally Posted by precaryous
I have seen my T for about eight months. I had therapy yesterday. I had a dissociative episode- first time that's happened in a long time..first time T has ever seen that happen to me.
I hated it. I had no control. It was hard to talk. It was hard to think. I felt like I didn't want to come back. I feel embarrassed.
Looking back, it feels like someone snatched my clothes off in public.
I feel vulnerable...I didn't even know I should have had my guard up. I hate feeling vulnerable.
I hate that it could happen again. I don't even want to talk in therapy anymore.
If this happens to you...does your T help bring you back? How?
I didn't even realize I was gone until T said, "How are you feeling right now?"
Maybe I should ask her to touch my knee or something to signal me...maybe that would help bring me back?
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this has happened to me and it does feel horrible it really really does
and like you it was the first time that T had seen it happen.
she just tried talking to me though in a soft calm voice asking what was happening, what she could do to help.. but of course I was unable to answer
sometimes when I dissociate I am catatonic
it was soothing hearing her voice though and I remember feeling a bit safer.
I don't remember much of the session at all but later on was able to reflect and I emailed T and asked if it happened again sometimes touch helps bring me back so if she could come over and maybe even sit next to me and hold my hand then that may be helpful - thankfully it hasnt happened since.
maybe talk to your T when you next see her and talk about what may be helpful if it happens again?
I hope your going ok