Hi Fuzzy, sometimes things/feelings are way more scary when you're keeping them to yourself or "bottling them up".
And you know "going it alone" can be so isolating/allow those feelings to intensify
I know you've probably talked to doctors, but when it comes to people who are there in the moment or who've been there you might get a bit more actual/close up and personal understanding, insight, support...............
Not that you necessarily have to go into any detail if it's really personal to you, but maybe if you check out other threads/posts on what you're going through a bit more, and maybe ask some "vague" questions you might want to ask, if you feel able to. You know, I'd say we're really non-judgmental and open here if that concerns you at all
So, if it's still bothering you......................
And of course even if I/some people on here haven't got the same issues we still care about you, so if you want to give us a shot, I'm sure we'll do our best to support you.
So just.............whenever/whatever you feel comfortable in saying if you want to, anytime.

Alison