IG, I remember how much your therapist means to you from other posts you made. It is okay that you feel close to your t. It shows that you find caring and compassion there. There is nothing wrong with that.

I get feeling really sad too when you say you must give the scarf back. I feel that is the uncaring mother character in me saying I can't have caring or compassion, punishing me to give it back. I want to say no to her - I just want to put my foot down and say enough is enough. You have run my life and made me suffer but you cannot make me do that anymore. You don't have power over me anymore.

I hope I haven't triggered you, but it really makes me indignant to hear that hard cold voice say I can't have a gift of caring and compassion.

You are right, if you make all those changes and follow the cold hard voice inside that says the therapist cannot be caring and compassionate, it will change therapy.

We all have that voice that wants to rule our lives like a tyrant and it will if we let it. Don't let it snuff out any caring and compassion in your life.

It is okay to feel attachment to the only person that you know who shows you caring and compassion no matter what you reveal to them.

The longing for more is the human condition. We want more than a person can give us. It may not be ingratitude, just this deep deep longing in our hearts. Some say that is the human condition. Some say this is what brings us to a better place. Home.