I think my college has someone I can talk to but I wouldn't go, no one around me knows I feel like this when I'm with friends and family I'm ok but when I'm alone I start thinking, even meditating some times ill sit down close my eyes and listen to spiritual music for about an hour and look into my mind. I think I make things up in my head some times that aren't real and I get confused between what I created and reality and then I get said because the things I created are not in my reality. Anyway thanks for the replies