My brother killed himself in 2012. We were the closest things to each other. It was completely unexpected. Since then, I have had the hardest time keeping people close to me. I used to be able to make friends with everyone and talk to people and get to know them and help them but since then I can not hold onto anyone that comes close to me. I have pushed people away, I don't go out with people anymore, I don't date anymore. I have tried over and over again and I just don't know why I can't. Can anyone help? I am starting to feel more and more alone and it is very hard. Especially now right before the holidays. Thank you guys.

-Alia