31-minute workout today. Almost missed it, but.. nope.. screw that noise, I ain't givin' up that easily! RAWR. Also, for my first pullup set (bicep/chest focused one) I can now do 12, rather than the previous 10... so yay!

I could probably squeeze in a few more if I push hard enough... or pull hard enough, I should say. xD So, getting stronger. That said, I'm also... about 194lbs... which blows me away. 4lbs away from the target I set a while ago. I can't believe I did it.

I weigh myself now and see that 16 stone mark so far away and I think to myself... how the hell did I let it get so bad?! But, I'm going furter.

I'm still overweight, still holding excess body-fat, so I'm gonna maybe head for 12 and a half stone, my old weight... or... 13 stone. 13 might actually be the sweet spot, 'though not as lean as some muscle guys get. I think I'll stop at 13, though, then start the bulking stage in whcih I'll grow a crap load of muscle, or so I'm told.

I'm utterly convinced I'm going to end up with a pretty decent-looking six-pack, to be honest; hell of a lot better than the one I just barely had years ago. All these situps, crunches, and leg raises I've done over God knows how long... FINALLY they'll get seen. When I feel for 'em, they feel pretty big... lol That sounds wrong. xD But like, belly kinda kills it. ¬_¬ Upper 2 are showing more than before, so that's something, but the lower one doesn't stand a chance in hell. Back in the day, it looked like I had a freakin' 8-pack, I was so lean, so I hope to get that back again, but better.

I don't know why I'm so into this. I don't know if I'm doing it for me or not. I just not that what I want, is to look the way I have it in my head. I want to feel attractive. I want to feel confident when I'm out. I want to feel like I have something to offer a woman, with regards to looks. It's important to me, for some reason... porbably because I'm insecure as all balls. I also want to feel strong... although I do kinda feel strong, these days... especially once I've worked out... feels amazing.