I'm fairly new to therapy due to the death of my mom. I have maternal transference that we have been talking about most of the time. Now that it is settling down, I am starting to talk more about episodes of grief over things missed in my childhood. Last time I told my T. about breaking down in the middle of the day just wishing a maternal figure would come hug me, tell me I'll be ok, that I'm doing a great job, etc. That was SO HARD to admit to my T. She asked me to tell her about it and all the details: what was I doing, who was around, my feelings. I did. Then, she said to try again and tell her how I felt. I tried. Then, she said instead of me telling her what happened, tell her how I felt. Start with "I felt..." I had a hard time doing it and she said "you were almost there the first time". It made me realize that I think she wanted me to totally get back in the moment so I would feel what I felt then.

Do your T's do this? Do you have a hard time getting back into it? She said I separate myself from my feelings and I say "I think" vs "I feel".
I have a session tomorrow and I know we'll do it again. I'm actually scared but can't pinpoint why - maybe afraid she will actually "see" me? being vulnerable?