I wasn’t exactly sure where to post this. I’ve realized that I’ve always had a problem connecting with people. I didn’t think my third grade teacher would remember me a couple years later, even though I was one of her favorite students. I’ve always been between friend groups, or part of a friend group I don’t believe I belong in. I’m most interested in romantic relationships with people, maybe because I become hopeful in these. But most of my relationships end in apathy.

I can be a sucky friend; I almost have to force myself to answer texts or even to pay attention to people. It’s frustrating because I feel like I’m surrounded by a wall and that there’s nothing I can do about it. I also lack passion toward anything in general.

People don't usually see this in me, though. In fact I hadn't been objectively confronted with this until my counselor mentioned that I'm one of her least emotionally open clients.

I don’t know if it’s introversion or social anxiety or dysthymia or none of the above that affect me in this way, but I guess I was just wondering if anyone has felt this way, too.