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Old Dec 08, 2014, 03:01 AM
ajohnson45 ajohnson45 is offline
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Originally Posted by ChangingMyMind View Post
I know how it is.. I've been in a rut for 10 months now but I refuse to give up and I am snapping and doing anything I can to get back to normal! I believe it will happen if I keep trying.

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It's not going to happen. No matter what I decide to do I have too much self hatred. It will never change. I know deep inside I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. It is so sad but it is true. Every time my mom talks about how she wants my brother and I to get married eventually it hurts because I know I will never experience this or ever be in a relationship with a girl. Almost every other person in my school will eventually but I will permanently be alone.